I usually learn best from books. I'm looking for books that talk about? How to Actually "live" even though you know you have a terminal disease.

I'm looking for something that addresses the emotions and how to live in the most positive way possible under the circumstances. I am not looking for a religious book, although a book that addressed meaning of life, spirituality and how best to deal with the emotions experienced would be helpful.

I've been looking at Amazon and various search engines and what I am finding is either religious or about the nuts and bolts of preparing your family, how you want to be dealt with after death, the finances, telling other people, those sort of things.

I would really love to have a book or books from the perspective of a person living with terminal illness but still "living." Learning to accept what is happening with grace and fortitude. Learning how to live each day when that is so loud in the back of your mind.

I have some time left before things get really bad. I want to enjoy the time I have left while I can. I want to think about the meaning of each day and how I can add to it.

I don't feel I'm explaining myself very well. I think it's because I'm not totally sure of the type of questions to ask, or how to get across what I'm getting at. But it's about emotionally and spiritually and philosphically doing this in a way that is healthiest emotionally and will add meaning to each day.

Right now, the fact itself is very loud in my mind. It's hard to get passed that. I want to be able to accept and deal with this emotionally and sort of get on with my life without that loud noise in the foreground. I guess it's about acceptance and grace and spirituality.

I'm sorry I can't make more sense of this, but I do learn best with books and if anyone has any suggestions I would appreciate it very much. Thank you and blessings.

LOVING ADVICE

1. Grace and Grit by Ken Wilber is a must-read.

Also worth it is Dark Nights of the Soul by Thomas Moore. Good luck!

2. Don't forget the most important teaching of God… Thee who loses their life on earth for me shall have eternal life in heaven. You have got no reason not to go and become a missionary do everything it says you should in the bible as that is the key to true happiness.

3. When you think about it, we all have a slow moving terminal illness. None of us are going to make it out of this life alive. We all knowingly face death at any time. So the different between your situation and ours is that Someone gave the disease a name and told you "this is how long you have..." and, for whatever reason, you took it in hook, line and sinker. May I encourage you not to worry about it, but find "acceptance and grace? Dwelling on your death will only bring it about even faster I compliment you on trying to find help in books. Just live your life to the fullest? I sure would. (Good time to take up sky diving and alligator wrestling! What the heck, you're going on a long vacation anyway!)

4. I know I don't know you but I wish I could give you a hug. Here are some books that you might gain some insight from: Hello Goodbye by Emily Chenoweth, Self-Help by Lorrie Moore, Questions & Answers on Death and Dying by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, E. Kubler-Ross, What Dying People Want: Practical Wisdom for the End of Life by David Kuhl

I don't know if you'll like any of those or if any of them are what you are looking for. I would look in the fiction section too for books like P.S. I Love You. It might seem like an unlikely place to look for information but remember that fiction is a story often based on real life.

Don't worry about whether or not you're making sense. I think most people will understand what you are asking for.

? I would read the Bible.

It has information that will help you in many ways.

It will tell you how to be happy.

There are so many promises the Bible has.

And I believe in my heart and mind that they are true.

Some scriptures to help you

Psalms Chapter 18, Chapter 34, and Chapter 102 and Chapter 103.

I love Revelation 21:4 where it promises

"God will wipe every tear from their eyes and will be no more neither will morning nor outcry nor pain be anymore the former things have passed away." It helps me all the time when I feel sad.

I would love to help you out and be there for you in this critical time.

The Bible is a very strengthening book.

I will help you very much and if you have a hard time understanding the Bible I would love to personally help you.